I was reading through a blog on love when i realized that many different types of love exist.Love for parents,spouse,children,friends,pets and of course the love for the lover.But there is also a very sacred type of love residing in each of us -the love never expressed.The kind of love which blossoms out of of the blue, the love that you do not admit to yourself,the love that you never express,but continue to feel deep in your heart in every waking moment.
This is a complex and extremely painful type of love.There will be moment of realisation of this love within you ,when that person is capable of hurting your feelings at the slightest mistake.Then your denial begins.You will keep on trying to convince yourself that you definitely DO NOT love that person,and perhaps go to the extent of hating him/her without realising that hatred is also a very powerful emotion.At the end of denial is the acceptance stage.At this stage you quietly admit to your self that you ARE in fact, in love.However, for some complicated reason which yourself would not understand ,you adamantly decide not to express your feelings.Then the pain begins.
Every single day you would see, listen and talk with him/her as if nothing has changed.But deep within,you would be suffering as if a sharp sword is permanently cutting your heart in two.You would torture yourself constantly day and night with thoughts and images of that person until maybe you fall physically ill.Then there would be a day when you wake up and realise that you are not in love anymore.That day would bring you liberation from self imposed torture.So if you are one of those people who feel this type of love,then I do pray that your liberation day is close at hand.
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